I love my life and my choice to stay home and raise my kids but after two years I must admit I'm a little disappointed. There’s a big difference between how I expected things to be and the reality of how they are. After years in the work force, juggling chaotic schedules and letting a sitter see my kids more than I did, I was more than ready to throw in the towel when the opportunity arose. But working from home has its challenges.

Work from home jobs are hard to find though. Lots of them are scams and even more have serious start up fees or don’t pay well enough initially to make up for the lost income. So what do you do? All I wanted was more time with my kids, to be the one that helped with homework, to have cookies and milk after school every day, heck it’s what we all want as mom’s right?

So after many failed attempts, I just can not sell things, and don’t have the people skills for all those little parties, I decided to provide child care from my home. Great idea, I could be home, the kids would have playmates and I’d be able to do all those things with my kids I’d been missing out on. Or so I thought.

I’m home. I’m here for snacks and homework, how much help I am, when I’m trying to quiet 4 other kids who don’t have homework, is debatable. They have playmates, which means they actually want to spend less time with me even though I am here, and as for all those things I wanted to be home to do…I still have to take a day off work to do them.

So where’s the happy medium? Is it more of a sacrifice to be at work 8 hours a day and not be home with the kids, or to be home with the kids and still be unable to have the freedom to just go at the drop of a hat? That’s the question here. Me, I’m happy to be home and I work for good people and get the time off I need, but it sure isn’t what I thought it was going to be.

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